Chip (meridianchild) wrote in paranoid_pd,
Chip
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My name is Chip. I'm a 22 year old gay male. A couple weeks ago I was diagnosed with paranoid pd, and it sort of frames my life to make everything fit like a puzzle. I started medication a couple weeks ago and I'm still waiting for it to kick in. My doc started me off on 200mg/d Wellbutrin and 0.25g/d Rispirdal.

This is a disorder I've lived with probably for the past four or five years, but I never thought I had anything because my friends who were worried about me, who did indeed say I had SOMETHING, were believed to be targeting me. I was forced into therapy by them, and after I had a falling out, I went off the deep end. Then for the following three years, I self medicated with pot and any other drug I could get my hands on. Eventually I got arrested for possession, and through probation I quit all drugs out of my own volition; evidently, nothing good ever came of drugs, because I was back to my old crazy self and my personality did not improve, nor did it while I was smoking. Now that I'm past the long denial period, I am relieved to finally know what I can work on, and I'm making amends with all my old friends who deserve it. I could go on forever about all the angry reactions I've made while being hypersensitive to people, when it was very clear that something was in fact wrong with me, but I think I'd be talking to a wall seeing the activity of this community. I'll be watching to see if things ever pick up here because I'd really like to find someone to relate to. I do know how misdiagnosed this disease is, so it would be nice to see a buddy who I share things in common with.
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